“Everyone knows summer romances are never real life.”- Christina
One day it won’t be a maybe. It will be a definite yes. I will be head over heels. Beaming. Won’t settle for less, nope.
I leave for New York in 5 days. Is this real life? Is this me? Am I Erica? What?!
Love others. Love goes a long way, even if you do not realize it. My mother always said, the people who need love the most are the ones who least deserve it. Okay, I think that is a famous quote, but she re-quoted it, and I re-re-quoted it. I think I got it wrong, oh well. You get the point.
“Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives.” - C.S. Lewis
OH I ALMOST FORGOT. I had my first inbox question which made me write this blog!! WHAT? My first. Which is pretty weird considering I have a total of 4 followers. hahah.
Anonymous asked you:
Why do things come so easily to you?
Okay, what? I’m not sure how to answer this question….at all. What are you referring to? I have worked in about a million different places since I was 16 and paid for every apartment I’ve ever lived. I am getting myself through college, and I get turned down by auditions more times a day than you know. It took me two years to get an agency that was worth anything. Things do not come easily to me, hah. I love it though and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I am just really appreciative of everything I have. I’m sorry I came off that way? I’m really not sure what else to write or say…
Oh, funny story, then I’m done…. This kid came behind the counter at work today and stuck a few dollars in my pocket. I wanted to smack him, but then again I really wanted the extra cash so I just held my mouth opened and said, “Did that really just happen?” It scares me a little bit the things I will do for money these days. ; )
I feel like Anne of Green Gables when I say this, but I really want to get lost in the beauty of the day. I want it to be beautiful out when I have no homework. To enjoy just another day of being alive. School gets in the way of that sometimes. Tonight was the first of many bonfires to come this summer… so wonderful, I want to be outside everyday and for it to be WARM! Life is so wonderful for no reason at all. Being content with what I have. It’s great. Two more weeks til freedom.. Solstice AND New York in June. Cannot wait. What a summer it will be friends. I hope the sunshine is making everyone as happy as I am!
My sleep schedule is really off. I need to fix that.
I have the best roommate in the world.
Some things we talked about tonight…
We don’t want to grow up. We don’t really want a real relationship. If we get into a relationship, what’s wrong with it being four months and ending just perfectly..no drama? Why just because everyone else is starting their “real” lives, does that make us feel like we are missing something?
What is considered starting a “real” life?
marriage…kids…stuck in a job you hate?
I don’t know where I’ll be in a year…when I finally graduate….if I graduate..
My life could go in 1 million different ways. Really. I just don’t know… but who cares? Just because I’m not doing the traditional get married and start a family before I’m 30, I’m not living?
For me, this is living.
Not knowing where I’ll live in 3 months is living for me.
It’s not this big dramatic thing that happens. You just turn into an adult one day and you realize that person is no longer a part of your life..you fade away from each other..you see each other in passing & say hello. People who see this probably think you two are strangers. For the next ten minutes you think of all the great times you had together and how much you miss that person. You realize you really are strangers now. Then you think, why don’t we hang out anymore? It’s just a part of life that you go through & people are in your life at different times because that’s what you needed. I really think deep down we all like to think that we don’t change. But we do. They remind us that we are not that person anymore, and it always feels like that person….that person had it all together.